Throwing Time Away...

Because we were the ones who have chosen this road less traveled by...having these little ones here...

all day...learning...loving...experiencing life together...

I thought we were somewhat protected from hasty days and hurried lives.

Time slow has always been a priority to me...letting them play...explore...imagine.

But busyness has entered our lives through...me!

I'm always pushing to get this job done...that next thing marked off of my list.

As I sit here in the early morning before little feet begin to run...

I am reading His Word...

 

O Lord, make me know my end

and what is the measure of my days;

let me know how fleeting I am!

 Behold, you have made my days a few handbreadths,

and my lifetime is as nothing before you. Psalms 39:4-5

and this...

"What was the pastor's most profound regret in life?"

"Being in a hurry.  Getting to the next thing without fully entering the thing in front of me.

I cannot think of a single advantage I've ever gained from being in a hurry.

But a thousand broken and missed things, tens of thousands, lie in the wake of all the rushing...Through all that haste I thought I was making up time.  It turns out I was throwing it away."

I read these passages and the words weigh heavy.

I begin to close my eyes and hear myself.

No, I don't have time to play that game right now...

No, I can't read a story right now...

I'm sorry I am folding clothes...I'll hold you in a minute.

In a minute usually never comes because they find something new to occupy and I am off to the next task.

Moments missed...never to be found again...

How many moments have I been missing?